Creative Courage

As hard as it is to admit it, I’ve been stuck.  Several years ago, I lost my “virtual” voice.  My writing, blog posts and social media pages came to a halt.  I found myself in the middle of an unpredictable storm.  At times it was hard to walk through it.  Eventually the storm passed and the skies cleared.  Emotionally, it felt like my foundation had been cracked.  I needed to rebuild.

Since then, a part of me has been caught in a cycle of overwhelming fear when it comes to writing.  I have allowed the fear to hold me back. The ideas and words have continued to come to me every day.  This is nothing new.  Some people feel an urge to exercise, shop, eat, paint, dance, etc…  I feel the urge to write.  Then morning turns to night and nothing is released. Oh how I’ve longed to pick up the pen or type on my keyboard once again. 

As far back as I can remember, I have been creative.  Writing has been my passion. When I was a teenager, writing was my form of therapy for quite some time.  Before I was able to speak my truth, I wrote my truth.  It felt so freeing.  It filled my spirit and gave me purpose.

Through this experience, I’ve learned that my creativity and “inner-writer” never left me.  Somehow, the fear crept in and kept us apart.  It deflated my courage, sense of security and self-worth.  My inner-writer has been patiently waiting to reunite.  My creativity was not as patient and took another route.

When the words were unable to find a way out, my creativity connected me with Coloring.  About a year ago, I bought a couple Meditation Coloring Books as a different way to get back into meditation.  I loved it!  I ordered dozens of coloring books, packs of markers, gel pens, and when the creativity was really flowing, Prismacolor pencils.  Coloring gave me a chance to put the pen to the paper again and create.  What a beautiful process it has been.

I have felt a shift from within.  I started working with a Life & Business Coach a few weeks ago.  It reinforced what a powerful process coaching can be when I’m ready to change.  One of the “ah-ha” moments came when my Coach helped me see how much my creativity was connected to my authentic-self.  By tapping back into my creativity through coloring, I reconnected to a place within where my inner-writer was waiting.  It was time to reunite.

I took a deep breath and asked my Higher Power to take the fear away.  I felt love in my heart.  I let go of the false beliefs.  I felt the courage and inspiration come back to me.  I released the negative thoughts and doubts.  I gave myself permission to live in my truth.  I embraced my creativity.  And I wrote this blog post!

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Forgiveness

This article was written by Life Coach Jennifer Bridge

forgiveness

“To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that prisoner was you.” ~Lewis Smedes

At some point in our lives, we all get hurt emotionally.  Until we forgive and get to the other side, it is nearly impossible to see the hold that it had on us.  Whether it is a friend acting disloyal, a significant other cheating, an employer laying us off or some other painful situation, life happens.  When we hold on to these experiences and become resentful, angry and re-feel the hurt and pain, we suffer even more.  It is easy to get caught in this vicious cycle of negativity.  For some people, it is easy to forgive.  For others, it takes a lot of work and time.  And some people never allow themselves to get to a place where they are able to forgive.

I think of forgiveness as an internal action that allows us to release negative emotions and reconnect to our spirit. Holding on to those painful parts of our past keep us from moving forward.  We get stuck in those overwhelming feelings.  We shut down and put up an emotional wall for protection.  But in reality, we shut out love and new opportunities to grow.

It is important to clarify what forgiveness is not as well.  Forgiveness is not forgetting.  As time goes by, it gets easier to ignore what happened and not think about it, but it is still there.  Forgiveness is the only way to free yourself and move on.

Forgiveness is not making excuses for what happened.  “They didn’t really mean to do it” or “They didn’t know better” are examples of some excuses you might tell yourself.  This mindset does not allow you to acknowledge the hurt and see it for what it really is and in turn, let it go.

Forgiveness is not justice or revenge.  Paybacks or getting even will not help you heal.  Hurting the person that hurt you might temporarily feel better, but it will ultimately bring you more pain. Forgiveness is a moral response to another person’s injustice.  It’s an inside job.

Forgiveness has the word “give” in it.  We give a gift to ourselves when we forgive others.  We give ourselves the freedom to move on and break the cycle of hurt we have been caught in.  We give ourselves a new perspective on life.  The darkness fades away and the world looks a little brighter through forgiving eyes.

Surrender

Don’t be attached to the outcome.
Continue with your efforts, and know that they are the right things for you to do at the moment, but surrender any attachment you have as to the outcome.
It’s the attachment to outcome, to things being a certain way, that brings us pain.
Peace comes with letting go, surrendering and acceptance.
It also makes us more open to learning from our experience, instead of resisting it.
~Michele J. Johnson